| Obama. |
[04 Nov 2008|10:04pm] |
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After a seriously nerve-wracking day (and years of embarrassment), I finally feel proud to be part of this country. This is an amazing moment in history and I'm happy to have experienced it.
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| For Viv. |
[25 May 2008|05:00pm] |
My "crazes" as of late:
tazo passion iced tea. plus 3 packets of splenda. obsessed.
stila mandarin mist. a year or so ago I started favoring perfumes that smell like citrus. this is my current fav.
the human brain. amazing. did you know that moral judgment is associated with the frontal lobe? well, now you do! (yes, i am a mega psychology geek.. just one more class until i get that mega expensive piece of paper in the mail!)
80's teen movies. I can't imagine ever getting sick of these.. They remind me of being 10 and looking forward (and fearing) my teens. Also, for whatever reason, the 80's always has been completely magical to me.
soyrizo! this is all i've been wanting to eat lately. it's amazingly similar to chirizo, but with way less fat and calories. i'm not "vegan" or anything, but i have been forcing myself not to eat unhealthy crap and this has helped me a lot. sooo freaking good.
now, everyone else's turn!
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| Music, my love. How I've missed you. |
[05 Apr 2008|12:15am] |
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(This is going to be mildly boring and kind of irrelevant if you're not into music)
So last week I was listening to that good ol' "Jonesy's Jukebox" show on thee radio and they were talking about a collaboration between M.Ward and Zooey Deschanel.. I laughed to myself because I thought 'Oh god, these actors need to quit with their musical endeavors, I bet it's horrible.'
Fast Forward to 45 minutes ago. I was messing around with my newly reactivated emusic.com subscription and took a chance on something called "She & Him". I played it safe and just downloaded the first track on the album. My very first reaction was confusion.. confusion met amusement.. amusement met happiness.
By the end of the song I said "wow. I actually like this."
So much, in fact, I read the reviews. And there we have it, pure irony:
"i'm a fan of Zooey Deschanel, she's so cute. and M. Ward's voice is excellent. this is a charming album. i'm really enjoying it. i love the Beatles cover, "I Should Have Known Better" and "Sweet Darlin'" is very good too."
I guess some actors can sing.
I mean, I have to worn you. It's kooky. It's the kind of thing you have to be in the mood for and it's not groundbreaking.. but it is fun, enjoyable and it makes me smile, damn it.
"Sweet Darlin'" is my favorite. I think.
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[07 Dec 2007|09:38pm] |
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it's really quite frightening when you truly realize just how fragile we really are.
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| a ribbon, a cloud and a rainbow. |
[18 Aug 2006|03:17am] |
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despite all of the horrible things that happen on a daily basis in this world;
life is truly beautiful and i feel blessed to be alive.
most of the time.
97.6% give or take 2.4%
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| I know the world is going to hate me for this, but |
[13 Mar 2005|06:52pm] |
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I thought Finding Neverland was over-rated.
As did Nick.
It was "ok"..
I just expected more, I guess. People were absolutely raving about it.. giving it a "10 out of 10", etc.
Um, I'd give it a 6.5323 out of 10. Maybe.
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| I hate quizes, however, this one's interesting.. |
[13 Mar 2005|11:29am] |
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Yes, I do love Buddhism so.. However, there should be an Agnostic over-ride as, clearly, one who does not identify over 90%-ish percent with one specific religion, in my eyes, is "Agnostic". I don't love the word and wish that I could pick one religion, but clearly I can not. Maybe I just need to study Buddhism more and see if it can offer more stability to my belief structure.
 | You scored as Buddhism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Buddhism. Do more research on Buddhism and possibly consider becoming Buddhist, if you are not already.
In Buddhism, there are Four Noble Truths: (1) Life is suffering. (2) All suffering is caused by ignorance of the nature of reality and the craving, attachment, and grasping that result from such ignorance. (3) Suffering can be ended by overcoming ignorance and attachment. (4) The path to the suppression of suffering is the Noble Eightfold Path, which consists of right views, right intention, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right-mindedness, and right contemplation. These eight are usually divided into three categories that base the Buddhist faith: morality, wisdom, and samadhi, or concentration. In Buddhism, there is no hierarchy, nor caste system; the Buddha taught that one's spiritual worth is not based on birth.
Buddhism | | 75% | Islam | | 71% | Paganism | | 58% | Satanism | | 58% | agnosticism | | 54% | Christianity | | 50% | Judaism | | 42% | Hinduism | | 42% | atheism | | 17% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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| In a little while, I'll be gone. |
[03 Mar 2005|04:13am] |
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-I've been so incredibly busy, it's not funny.
-I've been pretty damn happy, so said busyness is ok. 'cept when I sleep through alarm clocks.
-I'm pret-ty infatuated with these
-Yes, I do love using lyrics as subject titles. If you recognized the lyrics upon first reading them, this means that you have fantastic taste in music and are officially (probably) pretty cool (according to me).
-Sugar-free redbull and my ipod are two heavy influences in my sanity as of late. Does anybody happen to know why, exactly, redbull is so incredibly bad for you? Because I'm too young to die and I'd like to know why. That rhymed so I'm using it. Even though that's not exactly what I meant to say. Someone needs to go to bed.
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| Uhhhh durrrrr Madddd Nesss.. |
[21 Feb 2005|05:50pm] |
So it's a full Moon tonight and let's just say that I'm not surprised.
I always feel like I'm losing my mind during a full moon and I'm well over writing this off as a coincidence. N seems to think I'm very in tune with the world. And, yeah, he's so incredibly right. Too bad I can't enjoy it more than I do. Instead, I constantly feel.. well, crazy. I'm overwhelmed a lot.
ANXIETY ROCKS!
Hunter S. Thompson shot himself in the head. Suicide always makes me sad. Wish I could have given him a hug and held his hand or something.
I wish I could give myself a hug when I'm feeling like this. Funny how sometimes I can't for the life of me cheer myself up. My emotions just kind of circulate in a big frigid mess. Around and around. Non-stop.
But, you know, it always passes. You know me. Up, down. Up, down. Up, down.
I miss someone I just saw yesterday. Sick.
Can someone please pass me some mood regulation? Yeah, that'd be great. Kthx.
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| An Apple a day? |
[08 Feb 2005|01:59am] |
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Well, I'm an official Mac user now. I bought an ibook G4 kind of on a whim and, well, I'm still a little unsure if I'm a 'Mac Person'. So far, I really do kind of like it, though I struggle with the occasional frustration due to my ignorance regarding Macs. An educated guess would lead me to believe that after I adapt to the differences, I'm really going to be happy with my decision. I haven't connected my ipod to it yet and am a little nervous to do so since my ipod was actually a huge influence in buying a Mac in the first place. Only time will tell if this was meant to be. I guess computers are a lot like men. Macs certainly are prettier, so at least it has that going for it.
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| boring school mumbo jumbo |
[30 Nov 2004|09:33pm] |
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What a month it's been.
So this was the month I was to apply to UCLA. The school I've been planning to (well, finish) my B.A. at since I was probably.. oh, 10 years old. They have a good Psych program and my aunt went there when I was little so I always sort of had interest in attending.
Deadline was today, November 30th. I started it yesterday, finished it today (due to some events early in the month, I had no time to start until recently). Filled the whole thing out, including the 1000 word personal essays. Which I basically wrote all 3 essays an hour with very little forethought thought or editing. So, we'll see. They're a little unorganized, random and perhaps even off-point. I'm actually sort of laughing about it, though I should probably be upset and concerned, right?
I'm a little upset with myself that I procrastinated like this. After so many years of planning, I put off the entrance essay 'til the day it's due. Though I'm trying to give myself some credit for making it through this month sans a breakdown - believe me when I say it's been a hell of a month.
Part of me wants to ditch the whole UCLA undergrad thing, go to CSULA, finish my B.A. there, then apply to Grad School at UCLA. I'd save money, but the whole Grad School process might be more difficult to enter if I don't go to UCLA and get to know the professors before applying. Though I guess there are some other Grad Schools I can go to, I really would like to stay in California. Oh the stress. I'm overwhelmed by the Grad School process already and it's a year+ away. It's just something I can't screw up. I feel like I've been wasting my twenties away by working jobs that have nothing to do with my eventual career and it's about time I start taking my life seriously.I've been happy with some aspects of my life, but know I will never be truly happy until I'm further down the path with my final career.
What kind of a hedonist am I waiting all these years?
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| nightmare-esque |
[03 Nov 2004|09:33pm] |
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today's been the worst day.
not only did i wake up to some horrendous news about our doomed country,
but i also lost something very, very, very dear to me.
the latter might be temporary.. but the former certainly isn't. another 4 years it is!
fucking fabulous.
thanks, bush. thanks, love.
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| A Day in the Life of |
[24 Sep 2004|05:53pm] |
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So work is work. Much better than the last place, but still not quite the career of my choice, but close enough to satisfy me while I continue to work my way through school. Much like the former dot-com I was employed by, full of young and interesting folk, even a cute boy. Or two. Or seven. Or none.
My week is a sporadic mix between hellishly busy and boorishly uneventful, but, luckily, mostly the former (I am a bit of a busy-body, I suppose you can say.)
My 'weekend' starts on Friday and it begins with a 3 and 1/2 art history lecture. Quite nice, but still school and school, unless specifically a psychology class, drags on and on. So my 'Saturday' (Friday to the rest of you) is a long day until nightfall, then it's the shortest night of my life. Perpetually.
I tend to waste away my 'Sunday' (Saturday) by doing a whole lot of nothing. It is, afterall, the only day in which I have absolutely zero scholastic and/or employeraree obligation.
My 'Monday' starts Sunday, but that's quite alright because I tend to be absolutely miserable (for whatever reason) on Sundays, anyway. I may as well be working, I figure.
And my 'love' life, you may wonder? Well, that's good, because you're not alone with your bewilderment! That is for certain. I'm torn between enjoying the utter suspense and yawning about the hamster-wheel-ness of it all. I'm still single, technically.. but closer than ever to knowing what I do want in a person. And that, my friends, I consider a true success in itself. Even if I do never obtain It. Though I'm almost certain to be on a great verge. And Adam agrees.
And, you know, as Wilde says so eloquently : To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.
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[01 Sep 2004|01:40am] |
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sometimes i fear that love is a stigma that i'm immune to.
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| enlighten me |
[12 Aug 2004|11:13pm] |
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i think it's like already so last year to be obsessed with star tattoos and star studded belts and all that.. but i still don't get it. what's this hipster obsession with stars?
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| inspiration |
[08 Aug 2004|10:56am] |
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today's one of those days where i just want to take a book (definitely something old. a classic, for sure.) and sit somewhere, possibly under a tree, all alone, with a journal just thinking and reading and reflecting and pondering my existence. i feel so.. happy and scared and definitely very intellectual today. funny how the best things can be so frightening, yet thought-provoking and insanely inspirationsl all at the same time.
i also should pick up my poor, neglected camera today.
i kind of feel like grabbing adam and walking around santa monica with him. shopping and talking and just being with my favorite fag. he's been through it lately.. and i want to see him smile. i've been smiling so much and it makes me sad that i really can't remember when it was that i last saw him smile. i mean truly smile.
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[15 Jul 2004|06:29pm] |
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happy birthday to my darling friend, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ericcovey .
i promise to not hate you if you go to italy without me. or, i'll try my very hardest not to do so, anyway. :)
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| sometimes, he does make a good point.. |
[08 Jul 2004|06:16pm] |
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Be careful when you wrestle with monsters, lest you thereby become one. For, if you stare long enough into the abyss, the abyss also stares into you.
-- Friedrich Nietsche
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| new hair |
[05 Jul 2004|03:57pm] |
picture.. as promised. this pic doesn't properly illustrate just how short it is.. but this is all you get for the time being. also, it's a little different already. i put a strip of blonde in the front. and stuff.
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